29 July 2010, 11:58 am
The thing is, God and all the christians(I'm barely Christian) told me that if you do the good thing, something BETTER will happen to you. Well I don't even know how, but my personality and feelings have changed a lot. I am very whiny now. And I get annoyed VERY easily. But it happened because I'm in the stage for that. Well the other reason is because I moved into the crppiest country ever. (not the US. I moved from the US) well ever since first grade, i was hurt by other people my age. and now i'm in 6th grade. well i moved here to this shetty place about 3 months ago. Well the first month, it was totally fine! I felt like Queen Bee. >_< well that was because the kids were TWO FACED. so different from america! I miss you, america! well i found out that there was only ONE person(literally one person) that wasn't a two face. she was from another country too. well learning the language was hard. moving here was even harder because it's crppy. But the kids don't know crp. so they started bullying me. but some of the kids who weren't told me that they were also bullied. that means there is ONE bully. that is going around bullying people. it's true. well the bully of the class wasn't the one bullying me. it was a girl from mexico. (wow. a lot of new people from different countries. lol this school teaches 3 languages. that's why) well that girl from mexico started gossiping about me. making fake rumors. well that girl who wasn't a two face like others, i was her best friend. she was also hurt by the girl from mexico. well i talked to the girl from mexico. O__o That's when my personality changed. I fixed my best friend's problems. Well my best friend didn't even know. She was so happy that the girl from mexico was nice to her! She threw me away for her. and the girl from mexico was a two face. (sorry i keep saying girl from mexico. bare with me) the girl from mexico started gossiping and making lies about me to my best friend. 3 times would she lie that i said something bad about my best friend! well my friend ditched me those 3 times. the first two times, i talked it over. i pwned her. so she forgave me. stupid misunderstandings. well the third time, i was sick of it. and i found out myself that she made 58465 mistakes. mistaked of ditching her TRUE friends for that girl from mexico. well my best friend, she lost her mother. i also lost my family. my FAMILY. >_< I'm more poor. lol. well i keep getting hurt from people. Please help me before i go mental! I keep doing the best things. I was told by my parents. i was the bestest friend could be in the whole school. but how come nobody wants me? People also told me that God was teaching me a lesson of trust. i know it is long.. but i am suicidal. and when i am in 6th grade. this is the biggest depression i think i will ever get. i almost cut myself. i almost drowned myself. because i thought it was no use living anymore. please help! >_< Why am i living like this? What would you do in my position?... Read More »
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